he tells me im the most important person in his life...he calls me his best friend...he can admit to all the things he loves about me...but he'll never say the words im dying to hear. is he afraid? or is it that he doesn't love me? can someone really mean so much without feeling love?
Sunday, April 22, 2012
spent the day in bed and was able to talk for a bit but I can already feel the darkness seeping in. his eyes change and then wont even look at me. I've told him that I can see it happening but i doubt if he believes me. he needs to get away but I see him struggle within himself. he needs his friends...the real ones...the ones who can see what his soul needs.
Saturday, April 21, 2012
Thursday, April 19, 2012
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
sitting in the waiting room, knowing how badly he doesn't want to be there...but then he reaches over and strokes the back of my hand so softly that I wasn't even sure he meant to do it...I look down and he laces his fingers thru mine...I lose myself all over again...tears welling, I thank him for being there with me and he laughs it off like im stupid for thinking he'd rather be anywhere else. why is he so hard for me to understand? I love that he's there when I need him...but am I selfish to want him there when I only want him?? my heart and my brain are tired of arguing over him...
Monday, April 16, 2012
I have a question...if somebody asks if u have a couple of bucks and u dont have it, but then u go to the atm and pull out a 20 to give to them...should they give u the money they had minus the few bucks they were short or just keep the whole 20 plus what they already had??? im just saying...